Masih Risau

.... sebab baby takde active movement.

As my previous entry, I've told what happened. So disebabkan kerisauan yang amat sangat, I've decided to call PCMC and check whether ada slot tak to see my gynae today. Unfortunately penuh sepenuhnya (as usual). Kalau nak tunggu my routine monthly check-up lama sangat pulak. 20 March nanti. So I told the nurse about my condition. She checked with my gynae and my gynae suruh datang labour room untuk buat CTG as soon as possible sebab takut kot la ada complications nanti bahaya pulak. Masa tu dah burst out dah my tears. Baru rasa macam serious je bunyi nye and takut sangat2 anything bad happened to my dear baby.

Around 10+am kot, terus keluar pergi hospital which like 10 minutes drive je from my office. 1st time masuk labour room, rasa saspen je. Tapi maybe saspen lebih sebab baby kot. Masa mula buat CTG tu, the staff nurse could not find my baby heart beat. 1-2 minutes jugak la. Punya la takut gile masa tu. Rupa2 nya ntah kat mana baby sorok, CTG machine tu takleh nak captured dia. CTG observation tu dibuat selama 30 minit. At the end, found out the heart rate is normal. Alhamdulillah sangat. Tapi masih confuse why baby tak move. Since the heart rate normal, they assumed baby dehydrated. So bila baby dehydrate, dia tak gerak banyak. Macam tu eh? Errrrr... mcm tak masuk akal. Anyhow, I planned to observe the baby's movement for tonight until tomorrow's night. Kalau sama jugak, I'm gonna seek 2nd opinion.

Tapiiiiii... baru kejap tadi, before I typed this entry suddenly, rasa baby gerak. This time kuat sikit. Tapi tak lama. Sekejap je. Keras je rasa.. dia tendang kuat sikit dari the past 2 days. Itu pun kat tepi2. Macam sorok2 je baby. Selalu kat tengah2 perut. Ni nyorok lak dia kat tepi. Just wanna say hi to mommy dia kot and bagi tau not to worry. Tendang2 2 3 kali, pastu senyap balik. Well, I hope dia cuma merajuk or main sorok2 je tu. Baby, tolong lah jangan buat mommy cuak. Mommy dah nangis2 dah tadi takut anything happened to you. :(

Sigh! I hope hubby is here with me. :( I missed him. Oh well, my friend said maybe baby pun rindu kat daddy dia. Bila mommy sedih missed daddy, baby pun sama sedih missed daddy. Tu baby senyap takde tendang2. Hmmm... I hope that is true also.

Oh, btw, sebagai information, hospital yang me akan deliver nanti tu support breastfeeding sangat2. Masa buat CTG, ada lactation consultant datang explain about breastfeeding. I memang dah plan nak exclusive breastfeed pun. Dia kata, what they normally did bila lepas deliver, (ni applies to my gynae, Dr. Seri. Dr. lain I'm not sure) dia kata, gynae akan terus letak baby kat atas dada mommies right after delivery tu. For about an hour. Untuk stimulate the hormone so that mommy boleh breastfeed baby right away. I dont really get it la, but this is what the lactation consultant said - Bila baby diletakkan in between mommy's boobies, hormone akan stimulate and akan produce milk to feed the baby. In the same time, baby will slowly suck mommy's nipple, this will further stimulate the hormone and "push out" the milk and in an hour time, mommy can start feeding the baby. Ok, something like that lah dia kata. Sorry for ayat2 yang berterabur ni. Heheheh... then bila mommy dah move into the ward, baby will not be in the nursery but room-in together ngan mommy. So that mommy can easily breastfeed baby, unless mommy needs the nurses' help to take care of the baby sebab mommy pun penat kan. So along the stay, memang baby will be in the room with mommy, which diorang akan letak dlm baby cot next to mommy's bed. Hmmm ... I'm not sure about other hospitals, kot dah lama praktik things like this or me yang ketinggalan zaman. Hehehehe.. but I love the idea. :)

I pray that my baby will be okay. Saya janji saya akan minum lebih banyak air and see ada improvement tak.

Yours truly,

50% risau, 50% lega

XOXO

Hari ni balik awal

Eh.. balik on time!! Selalu confuse between balik from work awal dan balik on time. Selalu nya kitorang consider as balik awal tu kiranya balik on time la tuh. Hehehehe.. nampak sangat selalu kena stayback eh. Euwwwww benci!!

Hari ni, for the 1st time sejak hubby pergi outstation, baru 1st day keluar tajam-tajam (sharp hehe) dari ofis. Sebab nak elak jam punya pasal. 5.25pm dah melangkah keluar ofis. Alhamdulillah traffic tak teruk lagi. Sampai rumah around 6.10pm. Phewww lega. Sepanjang hubby takde ni, dah few days stay dengan kawan2 pergi swim. So around 8+pm baru gerak balik, purposely tuk elak jam. Kalau terhegeh2 kul 5.30pm baru nak tutup lappy, baru nak kemas beg, lupa kan je niat nak terselamat dari jam. Dok je la kat opis tu. Tak sanggop dengan jam di KL ni.

Hmmmmm... I'm a bit worried la sejak malam tadi. My baby tak gerak as active as before. And the kick pun tak sekuat dan se-extreme before. Goshhh I'm sooo worried. Kalu dia tendang tu, lemah je rasa. Bagi daddy dia cakap ngan dia pun, dia kick slow je. Tonight langsung tak kick bila dengar suara daddy dia. Hubby said that baby merajuk ngan dia, sebab rindu. Errrk?? And he too said, baby penat tu. Baby tengah relax. Erkkkk (again)??? I know tu ayat hubby nak sedapkan hati I. Lagi satu ayat nak sedapkan hati dari hubby adalah baby dah makin besar tu, sempit la tu dia nak gerak2. Errrkkkkkk ???

Seriously I'm so worried and scared. Experienced mommy out there, can you tell me whether this is something I should worried? Or is this normal? Since baby pun baru like 25weeks kan. It's not that baby tu dah besar sangat sampai tahap dah kena buat fetal kick/ movement chart tu kan? Sigh! Husband suggest pergi je jumpa doctor esok, at least tak lah dibelenggu kerisauan tu. Should I?

Yours truly,
Mommy yang risau.
XOXO

Jumaat Sabtu Ahad

Hah buat pertama kali nya dalam hidup ahkak ni, ahkak tak soke long weekend. Ajaib tetapi benar. Selama hidop ahkak ni, long weekend la saat ku idamkan. Tapi sebab laki ahkak takde ... Long weekend adalah tidak bermakna yaaaa... Huaaaaa there goes my long weekend, wasted! Rasa nk cepat2 je masuk March terus.

Jadi apa plan korang long weekend ujung minggu ni???

Oh btw pagi2 buta ahkak dah berblog kan.... Nampak sangat lah mata ni cepat je nak celik lately ni. Kalau somi ada disisi, kalu tido sure terbabas, bila tinggal sorang2 ni pandai pagi2 buta dah bangun. Pergi keja pun awal. Macam x caya je aku gi seawal ni. Hari ni nampaknya, kul 7 la kena kuar rumah. Semalam kuar 720am pun jem. Tensi aku. Dekat satu jam drive nak sampai ke opis sampai sakit2 pinggang ahkak.

Actually, ahkak terjaga pepagi buta ni sebab tetiba perut berkeroncong. Pastu baby pun asik bergendang sampai mommy dia x leh nak tido balik. Ni alamatnya terus siap2 terus la gi keja pasni. Kalu tido balik, alamat terbabas lah haku.

Hari ni tiada 'warkah' tuk Somi sebab dia akan naik train 14 jam lagi tuk balik semula ke 1st base masa dia mula2 jejak kaki kat situ. Lepas lunch kang dia bertolak so besok pagi baru sampai. Hope everything selamat.

Ok peeps. Sehingga bertemu lagi.

Selamat Maulidur Rasul.

Dearest hubby part 2

Yesterday
I was at home, in the room to be exact, for the whole day. Tak tau nak tengok movie apa, sebab mostly movie somi donlod tu macam pelik2 dan seram2. Saya telah menonton sekali lagi cerita Pisau Cukur ye. Sighh!! No choice, pastu layan cerita Nur Kasih sebab nak abiskan dah abandon lama kan. Hehe.. Pastu malam tengok cerekarama pulak with mom. Terpaksa tgk cerekarama tu sebab nak force myself keluar dari bilik. Duduk lama2 dalam bilik pun boleh pening. I slept quite late sebab tak leh tido, ntah buat apa tah, browsing the net. Than sedar2 dah tertido.

Oh btw, mak ada called masa tgh tgk cerekarama tu. Earlier she said she wanna drop by our house. Tapi she called said tak jadi. Maybe will come today. Nak hantar air sekali. But I told her no need la hantar air (macam susah2kan dia pulak). Ada lagi sikit la air tu. I can just buy mineral water.

This morning
At 4am tetiba terjaga cos baby active dengan tiba2. Tendang2 perut mommy dengan activenya. Lapar kot. But i ate quite a lot for dinner last night, nasi+udang goreng around 7pm then masa tgk cerekarama tu lapar lagi, makan roti + egg and cheese. Masa terjaga around 4am tu memang tak leh tido balik until 6 lebih kot, then tertido balik sampai kul 11am. Hik hik hik.. Bangun2 terus browse internet balik. Sangat takde life kan. Baca pasal cloth diaper (CD). Macam berminat nak guna CD ni for our little guy nanti. I've read quite a lot about CD since dia pun ada macam2 brand, macam2 jenis.. quite pening jugak. But now dah 80% sure on which is suitable for our newborn. And one thing yang looks positive about this CD, memang sangat menjimatkan!!! We'll see how.

I ate my breakfast around 12+. Mom cooked macaroni goreng. Lepas makan sambung balik browse internet. Until now. But around 1 tadi break for shower :p ehehe baru mandi pagi around 1pm ish ish ish..

Well now tak tau nak buat apa, maybe will continue reading on the CD. Oh, saya mahu keluar isi minyak dan top up t&g petang2 sikit. Sambil ambik angin :)

Oh btw, td kan, masa nak amik macaroni tu, I saw a grasshopper kot kat our tong air tu. Small belalang kaler hijau. Macam mana dia boleh naik tinggi sangat sampai masuk kat umah eh? Errr I asked mom whether that is belalang ke pelesit? Errrrrrr pastu mom try to get rid of it, nak tangkap2 dia, lari2 plak dia pastu terus ilang. Tak tau mana pergi. Cari keliling kat kitchen cabinet tu tak jumpa lak. Hmmmmmm....?

Ok esok adalah Isnin and I bet the traffic pasti macam giler! Orang dah mula naik kerja, budak sekolah pun dah mula sekolah. I MUST leave the house early. By 7.15am kot. Nak elak jam. Tak larat la nak drive jam2. Hopefully berjaya lah bangun terus. Sifat hendak bergolek2 adalah sangat tinggi di dalam diri ini :p Ya!! Saya mesti bangun terus dan pergi kerja !!! He he he

Oh and tomorrow my friends and I plan to go swimming again. This time memang pastinya saya akan pulang by 830pm kerana K tidak pulang dengan saya.

ps: Yes, saya suka sebab somi reply email saya. :) Nanti malam kita chit chat.

Please do take care and be good.

Yours truly,
Baby and mommy nak baring-baring. Jom baby!
XOXO

Dearest Hubby

What I did while you're away...

Thursday- 18/02/2010
Masa 1st day I drove to work, lega sangat sebab traffic still smooth. Lalalallaa je bawak keta. Keluar rumah at 8am. By 8.30 am dah sampai office. Syok wooo.. :) I bet you missed the traffic kan hehehe.. Budak2 stil cuti sekolah + orang masih cuti for CNY kot. That's why kot. Pastu masa lunch my friends and I went to Pavilion for lunch, kitorang makan Nando's. Masa on the way back to office, somi called bitau baru sampai. Boy, I'm damn excited to see "strange" international number appeared on my phone. I knew it must be you. Memang rindu abis la.. hehehe (padahal baru 1st day kan.. over ek). Lagi excited bila somi hantar email with the photos tu. Ok, you have promised kan nak bawak me and baby jalan2 main salji kan nanti. I keep the promise tau!!!! Tipu dosa!! :p Please send more emails with pictures pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee....

I went home late hehe coz pegi swimming with my dear friends. Ok, I promised you to come back at 8.30pm kan. But after swimming we went eating at Sakae Sushi. Lapar lah! Tapi no worries cos I went back with K. Her hubby picked her up kat rumah kita. I reached home by 10.30pm. Opppsss terlebih sudahhhh... And that night I called you and you talked to baby :) Comel baby tendang handphone bila dengar suara daddy. Mommy shocked baby extreme tetiba. Hehe.. anak somi sangat comel okeh.. :)

Friday - 19/02/2010
I woke up early coz tunggu somi tak sms sms ... pastu solat Subuh, golek2 kejap, you called (best!!!) then basuh baju and mandi to work. I left the home at 8am again today. And again by 830am dah sampai ofis. Soka gile!! Jalan tak jem. How I wish traffic macam ni tetiap hari. Sure heaven kan. Today rasa bosan cos no calls or sms from you sbb somi travel to Chayvo by train kan. No coverage ek? Btw, kat ofis takde la stress sangat cos I've done with my work. Yang kena prepare documents cam gile tu kan. Alhamdulillah, all in progress and in order. So my boss pun tak cakap banyak and tak kacau sangat. Hehehe suka suka!! Tapi siap lah hari Isnin pasti stressfool! Sebab nak kena send out those documents. Bohsannnn!! Pastu Monday baru buat my monthly end-month routine tu kot. Boss said it will be as usual. So I'm quite broke sementara nak tunggu end month :D

I went back around 6.30pm. Jalan tak jem macam selalu. Still smooth la. By 7pm dah sampai rumah dah. I didnt took my dinner pun semalam. Balik, rest2.. main2 internet, pastu tertido. Luckily tak terjaga tengah2 malam kelaparan. And baby pun mcm paham2 je tak banyak kerenah pulak dia. Kalau tak, bila tak dinner sure pening la apa la kan.. tapi semalam okeh pulak. Baby sian kat mommy dia kot. Tapi tido tak lena sangat sebab sikit2 bangun check phone. Mana tau kot somi ada sms. Tapi takde. I know, somi masih dlm train kan.

This morning - 20/02/2010
I update my blog. I saw my visitor ada dari Russia. Was it you? Somi, while I'm typing this, baby's kicking. Maybe lapar kot. But I took 2 slices of bread and cheese tadi. Maybe baby still lapar kot. Gonna eat another set of bread and cheese with fresh milk jap lagi. We teribbly missed you! Tak puas cakap ngan somi tadi. Tak sampai 5 minit pun. Btw, mak ada call and asked whether I want anything from pasar. Dia beli ayam for me, but I told her we bought some foods before your left ari tu kan. Takut tak abis je. Nanti bazir lak. So mak said, she'll keep it at B*ngi, nanti dah abis stock amik je kat sana. So.. nothing much to do today. And hubby, hari ni hari Sabtu ye. Cuti :p My plan for today? I might be watching movies yang somi donload bebanyak tu. Repeat balik la nampaknya. Oh, nak abis kan tengok Nur Kasih la :p ehehehe.. I think I'll be staying at home je weekend ni. I'll update more. Watch out this space ye..

ps: you said you will top-up my touch n go. :( takde ponnn tipuuuuu... :p sib baik isteli ada cash nak bayar toll.

Yours truly,
Ye ye baby.. jom kita makan dulu.. :)
XOXO

Being hubby-less at 6 months old

As usual, mukadimah would be.. lama tak hapdate, takde mood, tak tau nak citer apa bla bla bla.. sighh!!! Padahal quite a lot of things to share in here especially about my pregnancy. Tapi, MALAS!

Ok, now dah rajin dengan tetiba. All because I'm all alone, husband went outstation for 2 weeks. Alaaa 2 weeks je. But being pregnant, tetiba jadi emo okeh. Rasa sunyi sangat takde hubby around, rasa bilik tetiba sangat kosong. And some more, communication susah sangat. Sukar untuk mengubat rindu. The place he went tidak ada Maxis roaming and he was given a local number. Dah la mahal giler for me to call him. RM2.28/minit. :( Pastu office dia pulak block chatting punya application, so his co's laptop takleh nak berYM ke, gtalk ke, even facebook punya chat pun blocked!!! Pastu he had to travel to other site from his current base by train for another 14 hours dan sepanjang 14 hours tu no coverage means no call no sms. Double sad!!!

Now baru baru 3rd days he left. Tapi rasa boring giler and rasa tak tau nak describe camna. Anyways, while I'm typing this, dear hubby just called. Tengok number je dah rasa berbunga2. :) Panjang umur dia. Tapi as usual, cakap tak sampai 5 minit pun. Because dia adalah sangat sibok. Banyak keja nak kena settle dalam 2 weeks. I can only talk longer (less than 15 minutes) after his working hours. Itupun dia dah penat and nak tido cos the weather there is freaking cold, snow lebat gile and he's now caught a flu pulak. Haiyoooo. Hopefully he'll be recovered soon.

He's now arrived at the town after 14 hours journey by train and now in the car heading to the site which took another 1 1/2 hours. Dan sekarang tengah ribut salji yang mild. I pray for your safety and we (me and baby) missed you very very much :( Somi... i love you!!!

Ok now about my 6 months baby in the womb. This cute little precious "guy" inside me pun rindu kat daddy dia. Last 2 nights hubby called, I put on the speakerphone and letak atas perut bagi daddy dia cakap ngan dia. Dia punya excited sampai tendang2 handphone tu. All this while, kalau hubby letak tangan dia tendang, tp kalu takat dengar suara dia buat dek jek la. But surprisingly, dengar suara je thru the phone pun dia tendang. Obviously he knew that daddy is not around and he missed daddy too. Cuteness!!

Oh yeah, the precious little one is a HE. We scanned at the 5th months, my gynae said nampak macam HE. Tapi she dare not confirmed and asked us to wait till the next check-up, which was last Saturday. So last Saturday, scanned at 6th months and she said it looks like a HE again. Tapi my baby tak mau tunjuk sangat. Dia sorok-sorok. Tapi Dr. Seri confirmed boy. Takpe lah baby, mommy beli baju semua warna natural. If boy boleh pakai, girl pun boleh pakai. :) But I think its a BOY lah.. :)

Now baby dah start actively kicking. Tapi normally cuma at night time la paling active, while me tengah baring2. Kadang2 kat ofis pun ada rasa dia gerak2 bila me tengah sit still buat keja. The 1st I felt the movement masa 5th months. Tapi sikit2 je. Started with butterfly flutters and at the end of 5th months baru rasa gendang2 kat dalam. Tapi mild la. Now baru lah rasa gendang kuat sikit. The feeling is sooooooooo undescribeable. Macam sooooooooo precious. And it can make you smile sorang2. :) I'm so blessed and grateful sangat been given this opportunity. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Even tho it took a while (3 years ye) to experienced this, but it's all worth it.

*Ya Allah, kau kurniakan lah aku zuriat yang sihat, sempurna sifatnya. Amin...*

My morning sickness dah reduce a bit. Since few weeks back. Kalau tak asik muntah pagi2. Muntah je la. And pening2 sikit. Tapi as of few weeks back, muntah kuning di pagi hari tu dah takde and pening waktu pagi pun dah kurang. Like this morning, Alhamdulillah sangat, rasa kuat je :) Maybe sebab hubby takde kot.. automatically body ni pandai nak adjust jadi survivor hehehe..

Ok lah peeps.. I'll continue in my next entry. I wanna share the baby scanned photo. Bentuk muka dah nampak, dagu kecik macam mommy dia, mata ikut daddy dia. :) See you soon..

Yours truly,
Saya yang kebosanan dan mungkin akan melayan movie yang telah dibekalkan oleh Somi saya sebelum dia berangkat..

XOXO